Sunday, 18 March 2012

Happy Antinatalism Day!

Today is one of two days devoted entirely to talking about antinatalism, spreading antinatalism, and remembering its importance to your life (so sayeth estnihil). That is to say, when the rest of the so-called civilised world is celebrating 'Mother's Day' or 'Father's Day', we can focus instead on how horrible life, birth, and death ultimately are. Hooray!

And thanks, by the way, to google searchers out there, for reminding me to read Mitchell Heisman's monster work. I spend most of my day learning (traditional or programming) languages anyway, so it's not like I'd be missing out on much by reading it. Oh and sleeping. I do a lot of that. I am practically hibernating this year away.

Not much of a post today, simply because on this day of all days, I am still extremely tired, no matter how much I sleep, and still find sleeping a much more realistic alternative to living. See you tomorrow, if I post then.

Also I go on Jim's chatroom starting at around 10pm to 11pm everyday. The room's pretty much dead, so, I'd appreciate it if we all tried to revive it from its currently pitiful state. When have I ever asked you to do anything (except not have kids, not destroy the world, sterilise all animals, not commit suicide unless your suffering outweighs your loved ones' etc.)?


  1. Most stuff is available in several translations anyway, why bother? I think there should only be one language:

    As for programming, JavaScript, PHP, VB.Net and C# are the best in terms of productivity and getting things done, imho.

  2. No, I'm learning French because I plan to one day live there, for a while at least anyway, and I'm learning Japanese because I don't want to have to wait for the latest things to be translated. And yeah definitely agree with you there, there SHOULD only be one language and it's a tragedy that it is not enforced on people to stop cultural division, war etc.

    I'm learning Python at the moment, simply because it's (a relatively easy and (b in high demand. But yeah, I'd probably trust your choices, especially since web design is extremely profitable (hence PHP and Javascript). Already made notes on a lot of C# - the only real issue is actually learning those notes, which could take a while.

    Thanks for the comment!

  3. Ah, I see, thanks. France is certainly worth a visit, though I wouldn't have the motivation for moving there; but if you have, great! I basically only collect welfare, sleep and especially dream -- dreaming is awesome. Having to regain consciousness is one of the most painful experiences for me every day, it's insane. As for coding, I kind of lack ideas of what to write -- I found Gary's (inmendham's) stuff kind of inspiring, maybe should work on an "antinatalism ressource page" or something similar. That would be cool, but I doubt I'll find the motivation to do it. (Note to self: need to get a hold of an exit bag kind of soonish, I guess. :/)

  4. Most of my motivation really comes from (a horrible anxiety over the feeling of not doing anything (my mind hasn't caught up with how I don't want to live yet) and (b can't die for decades, so might as well live life to the fullest, whatever that means. I think I'm one of those people that are just really sick of life. Unless reality fundamentally changes, I'm going to kill myself eventually. I, and I expect a lot of us here (including you perhaps) are just sick of this whole business. Lack of pleasure, endless suffering of everything around us and even the annoying nature of time passing by (instead of say, an eternal emotion being present). But instead of just dying like that, no record of your existence, how about this: create a blog. Yeah, it's somewhat selfish of me, but the more AN blogs out there, the higher the chance someone will come across one of these blogs, wonder "what's up with this", and end up converting. But you don't have to of course, just a suggestion, given that the community has really died down quite a bit these days.

    Whatever you decide, I hope you find peace someday.

  5. Annonymous (chickening out for once due to job market's restrictions on freedom of speech)26 March 2012 at 08:09

    I tend more toward situational than endogenous depression... trouble is, my situations have been so relentlessly depressing I've never been able to pretend to be a fucking cheerleader for long enough to even get a decent job. I guess the reason I've stuck around is the old addiction to life/gambler's chance that perhaps someday things won't be quite so horrible for me personally when it comes to making a living. Publishing a book only to be greeted by a chorus of crickets pretty much pushed me to the brink for a while; I may well have died drunk in a snowbank this winter if I hadn't found a really good person to take care of me and for me to take care of.

  6. Annonymous (freedom of speech, my ass)26 March 2012 at 08:13

    Of course, even if one's own situation improves, there's always the torture chamber of empathy...

  7. Anonymous, I'm with you on situational depression. I wonder, though, at what point does the exposure to so much of it then morph into endogenous depression. Does one internalise the constant shitty reactions to shitty situations (ie life)?